{"id":62,"date":"2014-04-26T13:24:53","date_gmt":"2014-04-26T13:24:53","guid":{"rendered":"http:\/\/angeladentonfoss.wordpress.com\/?p=62"},"modified":"2014-04-26T13:24:53","modified_gmt":"2014-04-26T13:24:53","slug":"who-am-i","status":"publish","type":"post","link":"https:\/\/www.angeladentonfoss.org\/?p=62","title":{"rendered":"Who am I?"},"content":{"rendered":"

Like I imagine most followers of Christ have done at some point, I have prayed, especially since my sick season, that I would be of use to God.\u00a0 And recently, God has allowed me to see that he is indeed using me\/my story.\u00a0 Thursday, I had the privilege of meeting a woman who had read my story (via Hear I AM<\/em>) and was impacted by it in a way that I had prayed people would be.\u00a0 Sitting down with this woman felt a lot like I imagine sitting down with Jesus might feel.\u00a0 She was both strong and gentle in spirit, and loving and supportive in nature; and I felt as if I had known her my whole life.\u00a0 Our encounter lasted much longer than I had expected and, though I had not eaten in many hours, I walked away from my new friend feeling more than full.\u00a0 I then thought about the time Jesus told his disciples, who seemed awfully concerned that Jesus had not eaten, that his “food” was to do the will of God.\u00a0 (This made me smile as I’ve always wanted to care that little about food but I almost never have.)\u00a0 One would probably assume that I walked away from such a meeting\/experience feeling “high” on life and, on some level, I really did.<\/p>\n

Instead of feeling gratitude though for an answer to my prayer to be used by God, I realized that I was actually feeling riddled with emotions that felt an awful lot like fear and insecurity.\u00a0 How messed up is that?\u00a0 I found myself wondering if God really does know what he’s doing down here because I felt quite confident that there was someone else out there who deserved to be used much more than I did.\u00a0 I’ve actually felt this way, on and off, pretty much my whole life; and I and others tended to think it was a sign of humility.\u00a0 Finally though, I’m beginning to see that my way of thinking all these years may well have been just another form of pride.\u00a0 God can use anything and anyone because…..well…..he’s God.\u00a0 Who am I to spend the life I’ve been given looking down upon his “agents,” his actions, and his agendas?\u00a0 \u00a0<\/p>\n

As I talk to more and more believers, most especially women, I find that I am not all that rare.\u00a0 It seems that many of us who do desperately want to be used by God actually choose to stand in the way when God does try to use us.\u00a0 We “play small,” even though the God we claim to worship is anything but that.\u00a0 Of course I’m unworthy, and so is everyone else down here.\u00a0 Isn’t that the point of the gospel?\u00a0 We bring nothing to the table except our broken selves.\u00a0 And that’s okay, because Jesus really does has our backs.\u00a0<\/p>\n

Who am I?\u00a0 I’m His.\u00a0 I always have been, and I always will be.\u00a0 You know that expression that people in a new relationship sometimes throw around when they meet the person they feel like they’re meant to spend their life with down here?\u00a0 “That woman or that man was simply made for me!”\u00a0 Well, I was made for God, literally.\u00a0 So, why shouldn’t God use me?\u00a0 It would really be a waste (on my part) for him not to.\u00a0 I forgot to remember this, and I’m so very thankful that God used one of his beautiful “sixty something” year old girls to remind me.\u00a0 Thank you, PB, for reaching out and becoming such a sweet part of my God story! \u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0\u00a0<\/p>\n

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